Still moving. Moving still. Moving and yet in stillness. Running in place. Heart beats. Faster and faster. Finding you. Where have you been? In the place between shadow and soul, as Pablo Neruda would say. If I stop moving, my heart slows. and I can hear myself miss you.
My grandma passed away a couple of weeks ago. I can't get on the same page as my partner. I weaned my little one recently and the hormone shift has brought on a fresh wave of depression and anxiety. And then there's all the shitty stuff happening in the world right now. Kids being separated from... Continue Reading →
It is really interesting how music can feel like a shape or a color or the answer to a soul question. A couple of weeks ago, there was a morning where I woke up feeling really unsettled. I have no idea why. I don't remember dreaming the night before. But, there were tons of emotions.... Continue Reading →
I worked on a painting this afternoon. I call it “Voici my unfinished violin.” It doesn’t have strings. The color isn’t really right. There are a ton of little things I can see in it that I want to change or add. I love the lines I made on the tailpiece and fingerboard. The f-hole... Continue Reading →
I binge-watched Mozart in the Jungle this week. It is an Amazon Prime original show about an eccentric and famous conductor and his tenure with the New York Symphony Orchestra. He's so incredibly intense. He listens to his intuition, even to the point of seeming completely irrational to everyone around him. He isn't attached to... Continue Reading →
“The least movement is of importance to all nature. The entire ocean is affected by a pebble.” Blaise Pascal I’m kicking around an idea to do a cartoon similar to The Awkward Yeti about depression and anxiety. The main character of the story would be a heart. Depression would be played by an overweight... Continue Reading →
It is important to go after things that inspire you. I mean, yeah, as a creator, there are some days when inspiration can't get its fingers into your hair, and you still have to get work done. Keep a running list of stuff you love/find inspirational and return to it on days like that. So,... Continue Reading →
I've been thinking about this post for a long time. Months, even. I keep thinking that a lot of the lessons I learned seem kind of cliche. But whatever. I'm writing about them anyway because nobody reads this blog but me. So here are the lessons I learned from running: 1. I am a runner... Continue Reading →