Still moving

Still moving. Moving still. Moving and yet in stillness. Running in place. Heart beats. Faster and faster. Finding you. Where have you been? In the place between shadow and soul, as Pablo Neruda would say. If I stop moving, my heart slows. and I can hear myself miss you.

Depression, grief, and the determination to keep trying

My grandma passed away a couple of weeks ago. I can't get on the same page as my partner. I weaned my little one recently and the hormone shift has brought on a fresh wave of depression and anxiety. And then there's all the shitty stuff happening in the world right now. Kids being separated from...

Can you feel colors, words, and sounds?

It is really interesting how music can feel like a shape or a color or the answer to a soul question. A couple of weeks ago, there was a morning where I woke up feeling really unsettled. I have no idea why. I don't remember dreaming the night before. But, there were tons of emotions....

Voici my unfinished violin

I worked on a painting this afternoon. I call it “Voici my unfinished violin.” It doesn’t have strings. The color isn’t really right. There are a ton of little things I can see in it that I want to change or add. I love the lines I made on the tailpiece and fingerboard. The f-hole...

What would it be like to let go?

I binge-watched Mozart in the Jungle this week. It is an Amazon Prime original show about an eccentric and famous conductor and his tenure with the New York Symphony Orchestra. He's so incredibly intense. He listens to his intuition, even to the point of seeming completely irrational to everyone around him. He isn't attached to...

Cat Bastard and The Vise

  “The least movement is of importance to all nature. The entire ocean is affected by a pebble.” Blaise Pascal I’m kicking around an idea to do a cartoon similar to The Awkward Yeti about depression and anxiety. The main character of the story would be a heart. Depression would be played by an overweight...

Sthira-sukham asanam: the writing edition

One writer's attempt to create a more sustainable practice.

Dancing in the dark to the songs in my heart

A glimpse into the journey of a writer living authentically and pursuing my calling.

Go-to Inspiration or Go to Inspiration, Whichever

It is important to go after things that inspire you. I mean, yeah, as a creator, there are some days when inspiration can't get its fingers into your hair, and you still have to get work done. Keep a running list of stuff you love/find inspirational and return to it on days like that. So,...

5 things I learned from running

I've been thinking about this post for a long time. Months, even. I keep thinking that a lot of the lessons I learned seem kind of cliche. But whatever. I'm writing about them anyway because nobody reads this blog but me. So here are the lessons I learned from running: 1. I am a runner...